Happy Mother's Day

To my special friends who are mothers, mothers to be, mothered their friends even if they thought they didn't need it, mother their pets because they are their kids, and all of you who care about us (Alphagal, Aunt C, Aunt A, Mrs J, Poobou, MIL, Ms T.S. and those I have not named but know who you are).Happy Mother's Day.

This is our first "real" Mother's Day. I didn't really feel like i should celebrate last year since we hadn't yet met Miss C but this year is different. Miss C is already 11 months old and I have begun that journey of discovery that you all understand.

Since becoming a mother I have discovered that my love really does know no bounds. My heart aches to hold my little one after she is asleep for the night regardless of how hectic our day may have been. When I get a minute to catch my breath at work, I often wonder, what is Miss C doing right now.

When I have to miss bedtime or bathtime or even a meal, I worry that I am missing something so amazing that I get sad. I plan my off days around Miss C's nap schedule (rough as it is) and try to make every day, every meal, every moment count, even if it makes me seem a little anal.

Every night before i go to bed, I find myself tip toeing into Miss C's room just to check on her. I can hear her breathe through the monitor but I need to see her, my little angel, one last time before I can let myself fall asleep.

I call DH when I have to work through dinner, just to make sure Miss C is doing fine, inspite of the fact that DH is a wonderful father who dotes on his little girl.I find myself making up stories and learning signs to help my little girl talk to me. Its a wonderful feeling knowing that this little person who amazes me more every day gets a little help from us.

How was your Mother's Day?

36 weeks AND Happy Mother's Day?

Well, its been an interesting week all told. We're now "full term" (depending on who you talk to). 36 weeks, holy cow! I don't think we've gotten much bigger over the past week but then again, its difficult to judge from my angle. In fact, looking at the last two sets of photos make me think it must be in how I am standing because I swear I look bigger a week ago! Ah!

School is done for the semester and it couldn't have ended a minute too soon. I admit I am frustrated by the fact that I didn't perform as well this semester as I have in the past. I am a bit angry and upset with myself that I failed to do as well as normal but then i have to consider how this semester was different from those before. Well, the big difference is, of course, I am quite pregnant. I guess this doesn't make a difference for some but apparently it did for me. I have decided to take off until next spring to give us time to bond and later to move. I don't want to try and finish my last two classes (yep, frustrating!) while moving with a three month old.

Ok, the second part of this post. I am not sure if I rate the wonderful card the ever thoughtful DH got me. I am already overly emotional (yep, as per the books, the hormones came back in force this month) but am I really already a Mommy? How do you decide? Little Miss C won't be with us for a little while yet (of course, her decision on when!) but I don't know if I should receive these lovely sentiments.

Speaking of Mother's Day, here's wishing all of you (Alphagal, Poobou, PH, JT, TS and all of my dear friends) a wonderful Mother's Day. I hope you are feeling as loved and cherished as you should.

Well, have to get out to the pool. Been a bit more worn down this week but I am trying to keep up with the workouts. DH spent all day yesterday moving stuff from the house to a storage unit so we can start showing the place next month. I trust he knows what he is doing so when he asks me to pack up clothes I don't need until we move, I just trust that he's not messing with me. Anyway! That's all for now. Go on and have a wonderful weekend!